We named her Anissa Jade. It was nerveracking not knowing if she was going to be a girl or a boy until she was born, because Ray had a feeling it was a boy and we were never really picking any girl names. As soon as we saw her face we knew her name was Anissa.
Aight dawg, tell me my daughter isn't the single most beautiful mothafuckin' child you've ever seen in your life, yo.
We went to the hospital on Friday night. Anissa was born at 5:37 am on Saturday (5/8/04). Here's one more picture of me and her.
People always told me that when the baby was born I'd instantly grow up.......never believed it.....then I looked in her eyes and I realized that my life is all about her now, yo. I'll mothafuckin' murder anyone who hurts her *and I mean that*.....the love I feel for her and Ray now is unbelievable. As much of a fuck up as I've been in my short 25 years God gave me the biggest blessing and possibly the reason I'll still be alive in a year from now (God willing). Anissa is my second chance, my reason to change everything in my life for the better. Dawg, it's all so corny and I know nobody ever expected this shit to be coming out of my mouth, but it's so fuckin' true.
Rayshele is doing great. Her first mother's day was great. I can't wait for motherfuckin' fathers day. It won't even be fathers day, dawg, it'll be Anissa day. Like tomorrow, and Tuesday, and so on.
Let me say yo even this doesn't counteract the FUCKED UP-NESS of Anissa's god mother. I told Rayshele what a BAD MOTHERFUCKIN' IDEA it was to make her the god mother, but it's Rayshele's daughter too, so I can't argue that, yo. I've never seen someone (especially a girl) be so fuckin' INCONSIDERATE of someone's feelings for them, ever, yo. Never. Here's a fuckin' tip for you chicks........if you dump your boyfriend and start dating some other dude the next motherfuckin' day and repeatedly ignore the many (and I've seen it myself so don't act like they were absent, yo) attempts to get you back until he finally gives the fuck up and starts dating someone else, don't fuckin; throw that shit in his motherfuckin' face every fuckin' chance you get, yo. I'll get into that more when I get more sleep, dawg, but all I'm sayin' bout that at this minute is I can't believe homeboy is still motherfuckin' completely in love with that stuck-up fuckin' heartbreakin' bitch. I'll never understand that shit, yo. Fuck her, fuck fuck fuck her, yo, and it's fuckin' fucked that I'm the only one sayin' that shit right now.